MONDAY BLUES...........

Dame i woke up late tis morning..so comfy under the duvet..the weather really gets to you..sajuk gi..kan bagus ada daling with you...but????

Rushing to get ready for work..leave the house by 7.30 w/o Breakfast!!! Shit....LAPOOOOO NYE....

Wah ramai sudah org tepacak di ATM di seluruh Brunei..Y???? Bonus beb..jgn galat..heheh..susah cari parking hari ni..slalunya its easy to find a parking space near the loading bay but not today..

hemm...briefing was never brief on monday morning..dame..panjang saja ceta nya entah apa2 lah complain yang nda masuk akal. Today 2 meetings to attend! Ish nda pandai beranti ja meeting but no out come. productivity..zeero....retify problems..on going or either still pending for apa2 lah!! Aiseyman napa ku merepek hari ani.

Saturday nite me & the family had dinner..it was nice actually..we went to nyonya di serusop & they have entertainment there!! Waaahh..best giler..they have a singing waitress and waiter..god dame it..suara waitress nya atu POWER TO THE MAX...

Sunday..my grand parents & aunt came down from KB..we had lunch & so called high tea di rumah jerudong..siok lah..i really enjoy the family get together..especially time AF fever or KDI..dame..every saturday nite biasa tah tu..semua mesti ada schedule nya for family dinner..every week we change venue..

OHHHoooohhh...last friday my sister angkat & bro baru di angkat came over to ma'cribs..saja wishing me a fab birthday...so we wen for our Kolo sessions di Ban sumthing..eh nyaman giler kolo mee nya sana..banar tah! Di jamin hebat! After the kolo'ing (hehehe..apakannnnn...) baru tah buka ceta..rupanya durang kan be jarum2..WHAT MY BABY SIS KAN ENGAGE??? wuuhuuu..am happy for both of them..& Len yeap its time and you found yourself Mr. Right yea...so we were discussing about cincin lah..procedure of the Jarum2 lah..ada procedure jua kah?? We went jalaning to survey for cincin..You lucky BITCH!! That one lucky finger will be dame HAPPY soon..I tag along je lah ikut2 cuba cincin..mana lah tau....suatu hari nanti........???? WHAT???? Dame Woman!!can't I have a new diamond ring also?? Juz to make that bold finger filled.Wuhuu..

Well very best of Luck to you both LENNY & EMIH.. Lenn kalau kan kursus masak..makcik sedia menolong mu..no worries gerenti pass punya..emak mertua you akan sayang dengan you..hehehhe...But 1st session mesti belajar goreng telur....heheheh..Lenny..lenny....To EMIH..yeap you sure proved it to her my boy..chewah..lautan Api sanggup ku renangi..LOL..ade je ye...

Wokay chow cincau santan ye..........

2 MORE DAYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Wooohoooooooooooo...................my birthday is coming soon..........!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Wish lists...

tag Heure

Bouquet

Prada

new handphone

Gucci bag

perfect holiday

perfect candle light dinner....

Kiss from darrrrrrling............................

Lovely.......weekend

Fewwwwiiitttt....3 more days for my birthday.....yeeeeeepy....best nya.......

Yeap am looking forward for my birthday! Dunno why tis year am so keapo..but seriously am looking forward...hemmmmmm...I'll be exchanging gift with Yura since we both have the same birth date as well as dzaty.

I had such a lovely...lovely weekend with darrling..It's nice to get away just the two of us..But eeergghh..heavy traffic di border!!! Mental c daling tarus..well the thing is we were suppose to take off from BSB early..I woke up early plang..start my packing.. baru cbuk cari passport sampai mummy pun ikut cari...breakfast dulu...then mandi kan c twiggy lagi..hair dryer ia lagi supaya 'hengsam'..dame I was taking my sweet time to do all those when I realise its almost 8..baru tah cbuk mandi..well selalu nya c darling ani never on time so i was thinking when he said 9.. to me it'll be like 930 or almost 10..but dat day its like 9 meaning 9 sharp.. ia ada..ooooOOpss...sorry hun i underestimate you...euuuwww..We left exactly at 930 dengan Darling ada lah jua ckit2 bising...I diam je lah..............wat to do...my fault...sudah di KB...uhuhhhh..panjang queue...dame..kena bising lagi lah makcik..alamak..To tell you the truth its not a habit of mine to be late in any occasion, I'm always punctual..I hate to be late..but sumhow i guess i'm used to waiting for him for 1/2 hour or more..so i tot it'll be the same lah..errr..so he was not really happy with the long queues..it was raining lagi and he needs to be at the golf course b4 1..well for nearly 1 hour caught in the traffic di Brunei border nda jua berapa kali ah..hehhehe..but the Malaysian border not so bad..quiet efficient lah..

Sampai ja arah bridge...ITS MIRI BABY..................uhuhhhhuuu..check in..he went for his golf so i stayed di hotel saja continuing my sleep...I was actually planing to jalan2..but sumhow with the weather..heheh..cant resist the fluffy pillow..the bed..uhuhhh...macam pillow atu was calling me "Try me...try mee...me...." LOL..I slept till 5pm..wah itu sudah bagus..nda sampai kan jalan2 pasal malas sudah..

We had dinner together arah seafood centre..It was nice..but sumthing happen masa awal2 atu...ish..i refrain myself from crying...I cant believe sumone would just create sumthing so low about you when this person doesn't even noe you!! DAME IT!!..i admit i noe this person but we never talk to eachother even if there's an opportunity but entah ah...this particular person doesnt interest me... not a bit.. well daling made an effort to change the topics..i tried to be in the conversation but my mind was sumwhere else..sob..sob..sob..

We reached Kb @ 4 ish..wah..long queue plang but again Malaysian border was fast..even panjang sudah keta..they had the initiative to open 4 lane to avoid more traffic..BRUNEI pun sama beb..kami pun surprise..it was super duper fast..kejap je..CONGRATS TO THEM!!! apa nya daling..'This people shud be given a medal"..hahha..(refreshing back yesterday memory...rewind..rewind..) beb..yesterday bising you!! hahah..nakal daling ah..

Sudah sampai rumah..errgghh..lonely tah jua rasa nya..its nice to be together..It was a lovely week end..i had such a good tyme even thou I never get to do any shopping at all..but being with him its more than enough..
THANK YOU HUNN..IT WAS LOVELY..

Ohhh...but today he's sick...my poor baby is sick..hemmm..bakas bahapa tu ah????????????????? heheh...*WINK*
GET WELL SOON HUNN...LOVE U...

Crackkk.................

last nyte turns out to be just o'rite after a hectic, pathetic, metallic, boombastic..(bla....bla..bla..) day at work in the morning..Urrggghhh...hate it when sumone questioning your credibility!!! HELLO!!!!!!!!!!!! Bitch.....!!! if its not me who will be doing the job?? U??? My ass!!! erggghhh... wookay.. left the office on the dot (huaahaa..kes menyamal..awal kuar) then singgah jerudong bali udang & ikan..hey i do go to the wet market..am very domestic kali aaahh.....every Thursday tutong ada tamu kan..to me its like Disneyland tuu...or perhaps its like going to Prada boutiques..or CD...or..Vera Wong...or...watever yang penting nya I do go there to get all the freshies..even i dun noe the names of the fishes (hehehe no proper intro. yooo...)..but I DO btw who am i trying to convince??? LOL...I have been craving for seafood for days now..eversince mummy & dee stayed over, the menu is like fried chicken in the morning..then Chicken curry malam..yang pentingnya chicken lah saja menu kami hari2... Oooh..i happen to meet my junior from school while I was shopping for freshies..

ThE wOmAn:" hey zane...."

mE:"hiiiii..(happy..happy..but the brain was force to figure the name & trying to recall who she is..rewind..rewinding..terpaksa senyum kambing)

ThE wOmAn:" nda ia tau nie eh..i'm your junior sekolah dulu..ingat nda.. masa tani ada this pom pom for asean school opening..nurul.."

mE:"Ya..hi..(masih nda recall..what the heck at least she knows my name & confirmed she's from our school)

ThE wOmAn:" what are you doing now? kahwin sudah?? (gulp...senyum kambing lagi..)

mE:"eh ani anak kah ni?"

ThE wOmAn:"awu dua orang sudah...u brapa orang anak??"

Buat-buat bodoh saja trying to ignore the question..

mE:"ok lah ah..nice meeting you..kan capat..hujan hari karang.."

Gulppp...anak??? hemmm..uhuuu..anak kucing saja ada..I only have c'twiggy...

Anyway..reached home put the apron on ,then start marinating the fish..'the maid' huh..she just help me with the onions & the garlic..kerja nya pounding saja lah...then preparing my special dish...'Petai Goreng Udang sambal belacan' Foooooyooooooo.....best giler beb!! yaahaa..i much prefer makan makanan kampung..yang pentingnya i eat anything lah..liat badan che. I remember ma'old man said that if you eat all this ulam ulam you will stay young..huhuh...awet muda..its only me yang suka makan masakan kampung unlike my other siblings. Durang nda berapa pandai makan all those things..like cencaluk, tempoyak then there's this pengaga..apa2 yang kampong lah..

After my dinner, I went upstairs & main PS saja lah...c twigg pun nda berapa sehat lapas dari hospital beinjek..
Then c bro called kan bawa lepak main Pool..ish hujan lagi baru jua lapas mandi..malas eh....so he end up coming over to my crib..ceta ceta....Waaaaaaaahaaaaaaaaaa...thanks bro for dropping by...me ngantuk dah nie..bah good the nite is the morning is the woking me (translation : Goodnight dear brother wake me in the morning ya..)apaaakannn....

bah eh...yea naden apo..kunta yelea ngasam..apare yele nadem ~ translation : bah eh kan bekaja ku nie eh!

Lol vavai............

Sooo....not good

Man..waz so fucked up yesterday...urgghhhh....banci to the maxxxxxxx..........

I ended up going to a frenz place last nyte..yeap we had our session alrite..both feeling fucked up..we sat on her garage roof while listening to this rascal flatts song "what hurts the most"..NON STOP..baik jua MP3 if pakai cassette..hancus sudah..oddly i end up liking the song..its a nice country song.. sumhow i miss c boyfriend last nite..the song really gets to me..sob sob sob...

oh yea..before going to my frenz crib..i drop by to get sum food..i culd starve to death if i drop by to the place not bringing any food..so behind me ada tah mak nyahs...bitch'in about the boyfriend.. HEY!!!!...they were juz behind me..wat do u expect org tuli pun alum tantu mendengar ah.........ATWooowah..apa kan...

This one of this Mak nyah was telling yang boyfriend nya baru balik dari zurich..so ia kana balikan beg LV...

Mak Nyah A' : " Beb...bf ku bali kan ku beg LV yang baru..."

Mak Nyah B' : " Ai...banci ku eh...baru jua ko bali beg masa di singapore"

Mak Nyah A' : " Awu...but biasa lah..he knows what she likes ( PUI!!!!...Apa kan HE..SHE..Jadi nya ko tu bukan HE??? beb dalam hati ku becakap ni) ..ani tunggu yang sorang lagi apa di bali kan nya for me...Me suka present..

I was like dumbstruck..macam hello I'm a female kali ah...kan dapat sampai 2-3 orang boyfriend lagi ku nda mampu...cana kan divide tyme..kaja sudah from 8-5pm..then malam mau jua rehat..cana kan schedule kan ah?? mesti tah men' stunt ni... after paying for the food..i was kindda reluctant to pusing ke belakang..heheh..sal bakas tedengar durang bitching kan...but..terpaksa jua pusing lah...I just smile at both of them..but biasalah durang ani..payah kan senyum..pilih org beb..hemmm..like i care so i just walked to the door..i wanted to take a glimpse at them lagi..mak nyah ani lawa2 kan & pandai be baju lagi..BEB!!!!!!!!!!! sudah me pusing..me nampak nda jua berapa U atu beb!!! BEB buleh pakai short skirt beb..but please shave dulu bulu kaki ah..keriting keriting beb.. me malu eh... LOL!!!

12....

miss 'boyku'...i really miss him lah...i can take a few tears now & then and just let them out. These are the days every now and again i pretend that I'm ok but that's not what gets me..

What hurt me the most was being so close and never knowing what could have been..loving you is what i was trying to do....

its hard to deal with the pain not being close to you where ever I go..its hard to force a smile when i see frenz and I'm alone..

Huaaaaaaaahaaaaaa...

???

Counting the days for my birthday..i was never excited and sooo looking forward for my birthday....me and yura is really counting the days...heheh...both of us are doing the countdown together...

What i want for my birthday is just to be wif my "boyku" for the eve of my birthday. Then i'll go back to my parents & celebrate it with them on the next day.

Finally the boyfriend msg...ergghhhh....thank you sayang..hemm i maybe off to the hospital after work..chit chat wif emak n mum on the latest issues..have been so occupied wif work and my grand dad @ bapa. Bapa was transfer from KB to BSB hospital..at least BSB is fully equipped unlike KB. He's recovering thou and so looking forward to go back to KB. Semua orang di inform nya that he'll be going home Monday..i hope so otherwise you'll see him grumpy & semua org kan di marah nya tu..........

Wondering wat to do tonight?? c boyfriend?? hemm dunno if he's available or not..maybe c some friends n enjoy dinner wif thembefore that MUST DO = lepak le di hospital..hehehe apa jua siok nya..but ok lah..ada saja kan d'liat...hehehe..

wokay..need to find frenz to hang out dulu for tonite..mun inda.. Tido je lah......... have a nice weekend..

Why does it hurt so bad......

Have you ever love some one so deeply...and happens that all the sudden you dun received any calls or text from him/her...it makes you wonder and you decide to ring him/her.. what do you get is a response from overseas operator saying its unreachable.. Why??????........dumbstruck.. everything clutters ur mind..you try to think positively.. and yet there's always a bit of negative thoughts trying to squeeze in that mind of your..errrgghh........

Sad...but what can you do?? nothing...................hurt...so hurt.... Cry yourself to sleep thinking about it..feeling so lost..no one to turn to.... sad.............

Good bye 2006.....Hello 2007

Feeewitt.............2007... a New Year..new things..new image..new boyfriend/ girlfriend (?)..urgghhh hemm... husband/ wife..amah..bla..bla....everything new lah kali ah.. *ATOWaaah*

What was i up to during my new year's eve? Well in the morning, woke up early coz kami meliat kerbau kena sembelih due to my dad buat kan "korban" for us. As what my dad cakap kami mesti me'witness lah katanya. That morning me dengan suka hatinya pakai baju kurung merah but when we reach arah slaughter house ( apa jua rumah my uncle... sebelah je..). mengamuk wah 2 ekor kerbau ah...juz when i was about to step in dekat kandang harimau nya ..eh heheh salah.....kandang kerbau tu..habis di tendangnya pagar sal ia mau lapas. I can juz imagine myself running around wif my red baju kurung kena attack leh kerbau!! That would definitely create a history for me. LOL

Night time kami semua rumah my mak'uda sembahyang jema'ah. Then BBQ jua lah. Dunno ah this year seems to be quiet saja. Not really happening la..i guess age factor jua kali ah..emm..
Well i was thinking off spending tyme with sumone special, candle light dinner..then listen to music..snuggling each other & enjoy the drinks.. but in the end.. I stayed home doing some unfinished work that i decide to make love wif..sampai c twig sasak nda kena layan and gigit my kaki. C 'boyku" call me quiet late..i was half asleep.. well its nice to noe sumone still care for u.. love u hunnn.....

1st of Jan, i was so busy helping my lil'sis to get ready with her school things. Beli beg then barang stationery, kasut lah...well since durang my parents bukan nya nda mau bali kan but my lil sis ani susah eh.. so i told my parents i'll do the shopping with amera..let her go wif me. we bought all the things that she needs..well not all..shoes & bag ..that cost more than wat i budgeted for her!!! Then bras lagi..socks lagi..wah all this cost more than B$100.. kalau dulu ah tyme sekolah apa jua kasut kung fu yang itam atu..n bag.. lawa tah jua pakai beg jeans atu..lol..ia kah?? Sama lah jua kali ah..I remember kasut mesti tah yang mother care punya kasut..which we call it kasut "botom" dun ask me y we call it kasut "botom" but yea.. socks pun mother care.. at dat time my aunt pun disana so kira bole lah kirim2.. beg masa atu famous beg yang ada jam di belakang..n barang garfield..eeehh...

well good experience plang mana lah tau satu hari nanti i'll be doing the shopping for my kids..entah apa kah lagi fashion nya nanti?? hehehhe....